“Twenty-nine years have passed since I made the terrible decision to end my pregnancy through abortion.”

Abortion ended the life of my innocent baby and nearly destroyed my life as well.

The world tells us abortion is a choice we have a right to make. It isn’t. It is the murder of a unique human being created by God, who, at the time of conception, is complete with a body and soul.

Last year I began the healing of my soul through repentance, confession, and baptism in the Holy Orthodox Church. The powerful words of this Akathist have helped me to more fully express my grief and repentance to God. It is a prayer that I will say for the rest of my earthly life.

While I still have many tears for the loss of my innocent child, my tears remind me that I am loved by an all-compassionate and merciful God whose love for us is beyond our comprehension. The time to repent for our sins is in this lifetime. There is no repentance after we die; we must reconcile ourselves to God now.

This website is offered to the millions of women around the world who have had an abortion, and those men and other family members who may have encouraged it, as well as for those doctors and attendants involved in the abortion industry. It is for all who want to heal their precious souls and return to their Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

Avail yourself of the healing words of this powerful Akathist of Repentance for One Who Has Aborted a Child presented with a blessing from St. Paisius Orthodox Monastery, Safford, Arizona.

May God bless you with healing and peace as you return to Him.

~ Evangelia

Ode One

Kontakion 1

O Lamb of God Who takest away the sins of the world, hear my groaning and attend to the sorrows of my heart; take away my heavy burden of sin, O Thou who hast borne our infirmities; receive me who fall down before Thee in repentance, praying and crying out from the depth of my soul: O Lord, my Lord, my joy, have mercy on me who am fallen.

Ikos 1

O God and Lord! The creation is Thine, but woe to me: The sin committed by Adam in paradise lives in me and in my body, and like a slave am I always fervently serving it, but now I entreat Thee:

Have mercy on me, O Creator of the world above.
Have mercy on me, O Maker of the world below.
Have mercy on me, O Master of the Heavenly Powers.
Have mercy on me, O Ruler of bodily creatures.
Have mercy on me, O Provider of all things.
Have mercy on me who bring Thee my tears for my sins.
O Lord, my Lord, my joy, have mercy on me who am fallen.

Ode Two

 Kontakion 2

O All-merciful Master, how can I, such an abominable sinner, dare to come to Thee with my prayer, after having broken Thy commandment which Thou gavest me through Thy prophet Moses: Thou shalt not kill. But I am a murderer, and alas a hundred times more cruel than even the serpent which at least allows its offspring to see the light for a short while before devouring them. But I, the wretched one, have mercilessly deprived my children not only of the physical light but even more of the true Light, our Lord Jesus Christ, Who grants illumination through the Mystery of Baptism; and, to avoid having many children for the sake of temporal bodily rest, I slew them while they were still in my womb. Wherefore, darkened by these and and countless other sins, I hope only in the mercy of Thy compassion and with boldness cry to Thee: Alleluia.

Ikos 2

I have disdained Thy words of life, O Lord, and have walked according to the desires of mine own heart from my youth up to this very day, but now in repentance I cry to Thee, O mine All-compassionate Saviour:

Have mercy on me who was conceived in iniquities.
Have mercy on me who was born in sins.
Have mercy on me who have not kept Thy commandments.
Have mercy on me who have been deprived of Thy grace.
Have mercy on me who take no care for my salvation.
Have mercy on me who am caught in the net of the passions.
O Lord, my Lord, my joy, have mercy on me who am fallen.

Ode Three

Kontakion 3

Good and beautiful it is for brethren to dwell together in unity and to love one another, as Thou didst command us, O our Saviour, for he who is angry with his brother is a murderer. But I in my wrath have surpassed all those ever born on earth, even murderers whose victims of different ages and times were slain for various reasons; because I, the wretched one, deprived of life those who had only just received their time of life from Thee, the Giver of Life, and in my madness mercilessly took away their life while they were still in my womb, with no fear of God, and rejecting Thy will and the gift of childbearing blessed by Thee. I willfully pulled out of Thy creating hands my innocent children and was not ashamed to slay them before Thine eyes. But their lot is in Thy right Hand, O Lord, and my sin is ever before me. To Thee alone do I repent, and I pray Thee, O Good One, direct my steps on the path of penitence, so that with all repentant sinners I may sing to Thee: Alleluia.

Ikos 3

Thou who alone knowest human frailty knowest also all my sinful falls. Remember not the sins of my youth, and cleanse me from my secret sins as I cry to Thee:

Have mercy on me, a great sinner.
Have mercy on me, a transgressor of God’s law.
Have mercy on me, a violator of Thy testament.
Have mercy on me who come to Thee in repentance at the eleventh hour.
Have mercy on me, the wretched slayer of children.
O Lord, my Lord, my joy, have mercy on me who am fallen.

Ode Four

Kontakion 4

O Giver of Life, Heavenly King, come and abide in me who am defiled by sins, and cleanse me from every impurity, and save my soul, O Good One, so that being saved I may cry to Thee: Alleluia.

Ikos 4

I have gone astray like a sheep that is lost; O my God, seek me Thy servant, who from Thy commandments have gone astray into the impassable thicket of passions and self-will. Save me, the unworthy one, for lamenting I pray to Thee fervently and cry out:

Have mercy on me who am heavy laden with self-willed sins.
Have mercy on me who am darkened by passions.
Have mercy on me who am carried away with pride.
Have mercy on me who am consumed by envy.
Have mercy on me who am filled with unrighteousness.
Have mercy on me, O Thou who desirest not the death of the sinner.
Have mercy on me, the intentional murderer of my children.
O Lord, my Lord, my joy, have mercy on me who am fallen.

Ode Five

Kontakion 5

Wheresoever Thou wishest, O my Almighty God, there the order of nature is overcome; conquer the sinful nature which lives in me and its power which drags me toward sin, for Thou art the Creator of all things and the Fashioner of nature. By Thy Divine grace renew a right spirit within me, cast me not away from Thy face, and take not Thy Holy Spirit from me. Wipe away the deadly stamp of child-slayer which was deservedly placed upon my soul, placed by Thy just judgement in accordance with the sixth commandment of Thy law: Thou shalt not kill. Restore Thine eternal covenant to us, O Lord, which I have broken by my sins, and return my former virtues which were lost through sin, so that without hindrance I may cry out to Thee: Alleluia.

Ikos 5

Who has ever sinned as I the wretched one? What sin have I not committed? What evil has not been imagined in my soul? But with a penitent heart and tears I come to Thee, O All-compassionate Lord, crying out:

Have mercy on me Thine unfaithful servant.
Have mercy on me who am hardened in sins.
Have mercy on me who hate my neighbor.
Have mercy on me who offend in word and deed.
Have mercy on me who am defiled in soul and body.
Have mercy on me for my conscience is burned up.
Have mercy on me, a child-slayer like Herod.
O Lord, my Lord, my joy, have mercy on me who am fallen.

Ode Six

Kontakion 6

With the rays of Thy grace, O Lord, illumine the vesture of my soul, O Giver of Light, and save me so that rejoicing I may sing to Thee: Alleluia.

Ikos 6

Great is the multitude of my transgressions, O Christ, and all my life is like a dark and gloomy night. But despairing not of Thy compassion, O my Saviour, like David I cry to Thee:

Have mercy on me who have wasted all my life in laziness.
Have mercy on me who am negligent in prayer for my sins.
Have mercy on me who am ungrateful for Thy good inspirations to repent.
Have mercy on me who have not honored Thy law nor kept Thy commandments.
Have mercy on me, for I have loved the world and that which is of the world.
Have mercy on me, for I have spent the days of my life in worldly vanity.
Have mercy on me, who following the laws of this age and disdaining the childbearing blessed by Thee, have committed child-murder.
O Lord, my Lord, my joy, have mercy on me who am fallen.